Haven't made a decent journal entry in a while. Unfortunately, I'm still in the dumps about life in general.
Maybe it's because I'm getting older. Maybe it's because this economy isn't recovering fast enough (three years since the 2008 recession). Maybe because my so-called "art" isn't getting much traction. Maybe it's because of my current job. More likely it's all of the above.
I called myself reading How to Stop Worrying and Start Living
by Dale Carnegie, but a lot of it still hasn't sunk in yet. (However, I only borrowed it once from the library. I plan on buying it soon.)
As for one situation in particular: instead of trying to change my outlook on it, it would be better for me to just cash in my chips and do something else. I think it's too late for me to try and change how I feel about it. It's pretty much done.
As for my art, I'm trying to get one particular AWOL character back into it. I'm not naming names, but she's been gone too long. I'm having issues trying to fit her into the more serious, more sci-fi, and probably less "magical" universe that I'm trying to portray. I don't want her powers to be overpowering to the point that she's considered a Mary Sue. And I'm trying not to copy Star Wars, either (because I want to be original
, nothing else).
I don't know how I'm going to do any of it. It's going to take more time and patience than I currently have.
And one final thing: I really don't want to be a pest about it, but it would be nice to get some comments about my art. I appreciate the faves and all but it's not helping me decide if any of this is worth it. I've put too much time and thought into doing this (perhaps at the expense of trying to find a better line of work; or trying to get back into school, maybe). I just want to know if it's time to reconsider things.